How’re we doing this week? This week has been a whirlwind for me, filled with so many good things. I came home from a soul-filling trip to visit family and friends we don’t get to see often. I got to take my siblings to see our favorite musician, Noah Gundersen. I got to see one of my dearest friends at the show.
This week was also when the world celebrates Valentine’s Day and the Church celebrates the first day of Lent. Though we don’t typically celebrate Valentine’s Day, my boyfriend surprised me at work with beautiful roses and delicious chocolates. Fresh flowers are one of my favorite things in the whole world and those roses have brightened my week tremendously.
I have never traditionally celebrated Lent, at least not the intentional way I am this year. I ordered the All Good Things Collective Lenten Experience Cards, and though we are only a few days in, I am already seeing the fruit. I chose this method for Lent because I’m already doing an in-depth Bible study with my mama and little sister. Each day has a different card and each card has a verse to study and a conversation starter.
The first conversation starter was to share your biggest prayer request with friends. Currently, mine is to find a spiritual mentor and accountability partner.
Today’s focus was on repentance. As I read through the day’s scripture and though back over my week, I realized that I don’t always go through my days as though I believe that God is who he says he is. I don’t trust him to do the things he says he will do, the things he has already done. One of the scripture passages I studied this week was Matthew 11:28-30.
“Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light”
That’s the New King James version. Some versions say all you who are weary and burdened. I have had a busy, busy month. I have struggled with fatigue recently in ways that I haven’t struggled in years. I am so weary. I feel so burdened. I have tried every solution I could think of – except to go to God first. Often, in this situation, Jesus is my last resort. I don’t think “Hey! I’m weary, let me go to God with this and rest in him.” I am human, and I have fallen short of the glory of God. I do it every day, we all do. That’s why grace exists, but we can’t let that grace keep us complacent. I can’t use grace as an excuse to not take things to Jesus when I am aware that I’m not seeking him first.
Do I believe that God is who he says he is? Then why am I not living like it?